Monday, November 7, 2011

It's okay to gloat a little....

So I'm here in Florida visiting and doing work and OF COURSE I brought my running stuff with me.  What kind of "runner" would I be if I travelled for 10 days and didn't bring my running stuff!?  Actually, in all seriousness I can't go more than 3 days without running or I start to feel restless and cranky.

So i'm finishing up week 2 of the 10K101 6 week training program.  I was supposed to run 4 miles yesterday.  I saw that little number 4 on my calendar and thought, oh man I don't know if I can do this.  I thought back to the last time I was able to run that far.  Last February I was working at this same 10K101 program and was at this same point in the training when I was getting these horrible headaches--long story short, my blood pressure was running 170/110 and was put on bp meds, I had to cut back my running for health reasons and never finished the program......Today I am on 2 medications, but I have no side effects from the meds and am able to run without any issues.  I'm going to finish the program this time.

So I set out with my running shorts and a long sleeve shirt.  When packing for my trip to FL I contemplated bringing my running tights, and paused and thought to myself "it can't be that cold in FL...." Oh man, it was cold.  I set out anyway, armed with my IPOD and positive attitude.  Between mile 2 and 3 I thought "Why the heck am I doing this!? Can I make it!?"  After I passed mile 3, I gained a 2nd wind and finished the last mile strong, just as Todd would want me to! lol  I felt so proud of myself, I felt like yelling out "YES! I DID IT!"

Right as I was finishing the last 1/4 mile of my race, this song came on my IPOD

I know what you're thinking "Jen, this is not a running song"  I know it's not fast-paced, but it's one of those songs that I can relate to my life and it inspires me.

I like the part:
Long walks in the dark through woods grown behind the park, 
I asked God who I'm supposed to be. 

I feel like that a lot lately.  I really don't know what I'm supposed to be, what my purpose is.  Right now I'm feeling pretty happy about rocking the mom and wife gig.  I feel really fulfilled and happy.  I haven't had any bouts of depression or anxiety since I quit my job.  I feel like everyday is a gift (well maybe not the day Mimi finger painted her room with her poop during naptime).  There's a small part of me that feels guilty over all the education I've paid for (and will be paying for forever) and thinks  I should  be working outside the home, but I remind myself that that time will come.  Right now it's time to raise my child.

In the end of song she says:
I lived it full and I lived it well, there's many tales I've lived to tell. I'm ready now

I hope I get to say this someday and mean it.  I feel like I'm on the right track....

Wow--this post about running got a little too warm and fuzzy for some of you I bet!  Anyway, I hope you have a great day!

1 comment:

Jess Craig said...

i thought it was great! when i'm running i think about the craziest things, i guess that's a good thing?