Loves sticking out her tongue these days...
Like her earings? Daddy put them on her.
Today I feel crazy and stressed. I think I really took too much on this semester. I am taking two classes (one of which i'm really behind in) and teaching a class. Normally when I lecture I am super prepared, never flustered and totally put together, but lately, I'm always running late, I mis-speak all the time, I am always looking like a bum with wet hair and acne. Life is just nuts.
Why is god cursing me with acne at age 27? It's kind of a cruel joke. Having a baby really wrecked my body. My hair is falling out, my skin is breaking out, and I have this AWESOME saggy belly. Don't get me wrong--Mimi is worth all of that. But---that doesn't change me feeling down about how I look these days. Anybody got a cure for hormonal acne that's not birth control?
---a side note on birth control---I started taking the "mini pill" last month that is safe for breastfeeding and I've forgotten it 5 times this month! Let's just say I told my husband not to count on me for the birth control!
I really want to just go get a full-time job so I can work my 8 hours then come home and focus on Mimi and my husband and just spend time as our little family. Increasing our family finances would be nice, however that really hasn't been a big issue-we pay our bills, we put food on the table, we take the occasional trip....Boy would I love to be able to afford to go back to having a personal trainer to whip my ass into shape.
My friend Grace, who has a 16 month old daughter is in the interviewing process for jobs. I am jealous in a way. Although I'm not ready to get a job just yet--I still love being home with Mimi. I like that it's ME who watches her grow and sees all of her firsts---still waiting for that first giggle though! I try everyday--I've had squeals but no giggles!
Enough bitching and moaning---positive stuff
Mimi is adorable healthy gorgeous and fun. I can't wait every morning to go into her room when she wakes up. She sleeps 10-12 hours a night and very rarely wakes up at night to feed anymore. She has been sleeping in her crib since about 3 weeks old. It's so weird, I had the co-sleeper and she HATED it. I thought, well maybe she just needs to be with me and hates to be put down, but no, she would easily go to her crib. I didn't think infants liked that, all the people I knew with babies used their co-sleepers for months. Mimi is about 14 lbs now. She wears 3-6 month clothes, but Gap stuff she can still wear 0-3. She is still nursing well and takes bottles for 1-2 feedings a day. She eats 3-4 oz at each feeding. She smiles and coos, but hasn't laughed yet. She can grab toys and grip them but has trouble letting go. Sometimes she gets ahold of her own hair and can't let go. She hasn't rolled over yet, but has really impressive head control. She loves her play mat and will entertain herself for awhile when she's full and rested. She recognizes my husband and I and smiles when she sees us. She is kind of fussy when other people hold her but I think that's just cause she nurses so much that she's a mommy's girl. Mimi did great on our trip to Portland and I'm taking her to NY next weekend to see my mom.
I can go eight hours at night without pumping--then I give in because i'm so engorged. My supply is still really good, I pump 2 more bottles a day than Mimi eats. Our freezer is kind of full--but I don't want to let my supply go down because what if she needs more later and I can't produce enough? So I reluctanly had to take my pump with me to Portland--and i'll have to take it to NY< style="font-style: italic;">for this reason alone really wanted to give up nursing anyway, the dairy thing just gave them an excuse they don't feel guilty about. Nursing is hard work--I have had moments where I say to myself, life would be so easy if I was a formula feeder right now....but I keep at it--I'm trying my best to give Mimi the best start I can, she deserves that. I don't feel like I'm better than anyone else--I just feel proud that I stuck it out. When Mimi is upset and I nurse her she calms down and her entire body relaxes--nursing is more than feeding your child--they get so much more from it then food. If you're nursing--stick it out--you can do it! If you're pregnant go into nursing prepared with a positive attitude and a tube of lanolin!
Let me see...other vents?
I've been following some new girls vlogs on youtube---don't think i'm a bum who sits on youtube all day--I don't have cable--so I watch vlog while I nurse--I nurse every 3 hours for an half hour--you do the math. This on girl is having another baby and her child is I think 6 months--I don't know how she can handle it--I feel like each week I'm holding on by a thread. God bless her, I"m excited to follow. One of my other fav..Umbumgo is having another baby--this women cracks me up--I love listening to her accent and how blunt she is about stuff.
Forgot to mention==we took Mimi to the pumpkin patch with her friend Dahlia--i'll post photos, they were so cute together.
Little Buddies :-)