Good News--Weight loss Update Week 8

Well Ladies-I am back with less depressing news than last week.  Today I was 191 lbs.  That means last week I lost 5 lbs from Monday to Friday.  Did I go on a cardio binge (much like my friend Courtney)? Did I crash diet? Did I catch mono?  No to all of the above.  I seriously just kept doing what I knew was right.  I watched my food, and kept up with my running program.  I ate 1900 or less calories per day (some days I even got to only 1500!), and I ran 3 times (one of which I had to stop 1/2 way because I felt sick).  Will I lose 5 lbs this week? Not likely.  I am back on track with my "adjusted" goals.  Remember, I opted to add 0.2 lbs/week loss plan to keep with my Christmas goal of hitting 170 lbs (my first goal weight).

My clothes are all fitting really loosely and I feel awesome.  My legs were tired today from starting week 4 of the 5k101 running program on Saturday.  No knee issues, and my headaches are lessening.

My challenge in the month of September will be the travel.  I am scheduled to take two week-long trips and 1 weekend trip (hopefully involving a chocolate lovers restaurant).  Trips are tricky when exercising/dieting.  Airline travel usually leads to convenient calorie-laden foods found at airports, and breaking routine can lead to lost workouts.  I am going to do my best to avoid these two pit falls.  I am going to pack healthy snacks for airline travel, and bring my running stuff.  With my running sneakers and IPOD in hand no one can break my determination!

Some Photos from the Weekend

This child is the love of my life.

At the park 

"Helping" Mommy clean our her closet today.

More posts later this week!

From Bad to Good

So yesterday sucked.  I felt like a bad mom, bad friend, bad wife, bad everything.  I was hormonal, grumpy, tired, bitchy, bitter, you name it. All around BAD F'ing day.

This week in general has sucked.  Wednesday night I tried to go run on the treadmill and I got 1/2 way through my 2-mile jog and I felt like I was going to barf on the treadmill, right there amongst all the halfnaked sorority girls. Gross I know.  And I'm not saying "oh I felt a little queasy..." I was seriously worried I may blow chunks.  I had to quit my run and go home, head hung low depressed and disappointed.  Wow, this blog post if pretty negative--sorry it gets better I swear!

Thursday was bad. Period.  My boss decided to be a total asshole and go back on his word on something rather important.  He made me really angry so I picked on him for eating at Wendy's and that made me feel better.  Then I went home and cried, alone so he couldn't see me.  He almost made me cry in his office, but I tried to concentrate on happy thoughts and ignore him.  My happy thought is the smell of Mimi's hair. I picture myself holding her drinking in the scent of her + baby shampoo.  It soothes me.

Today is looking up.  I got up, feeling rested because I forced myself to go to sleep at 10pm, giving me 9 hours of sleep.  One interruption from the Mimicans at midnight, probably tooth pain.  Franco needs to start shagging his but up when she wakes at night like that.  Now that boobs aren't involved in the process I see no reason he can't pony up now. Anyway--I had my coffee, shaved my legs, and even blow-dried AND flatironed my hair.  I have on my favorite dress and I feel good.  I got to work and i'm all alone in the office today, which is nice.  My boss called and tried to make amends for yesterday and I just kept saying "fine whatever works for you."  I can tell he's irritated that I didn't just roll over and accept his peace offering. GOOD. Kiss my butt asshole boss.

So to the good news.  Monday morning I weighed 196, this morning I weighed 191.  So at least I lost 5 lbs this week.

I'm going to attempt to run tonight my week 4 run 1 AGAIN after Wednesday night's barf jog.

Warm fuzzy thoughts going out to all my ttc'ing friends, fellow weight-losers, and moms.  Have a great weekend!

Totally took a picture of she scale this am to show you all, but don't have time to upload photo right now sorry :-(

Thankful

Today I had lunch with one of the most giving peaceful people I've ever met.  This man runs a missionary project in Haiti but works at our department as his day job.  I offered to donate some of my time to help them create a quarterly newsletter about their work so that they can help attract more churches to help etc.

As we sat at Jimmy Jon's (eating 800 calorie 6 dollar subs) he told me what drove him to get involved in mission work in Haiti.  Every time I sit down and talk with this man I feel so thankful.  I feel thankful for things I take for granted everyday.

Today I am thankful that I have a roof over my head, while 80 % of Haitians live in tents right now.  I am thankful that my child is healthy and fed.  I am thankful that I've had access to excellent medical care, including simple things like antibiotics and vaccinations.  I am thankful that I've never in my life gone hungry.  I'm thankful that I have a family that his healthy and full of love.  I'm thankful for access to education.  I could go on and on.

Tents in Haiti

This guy's passion is feeding kids.  How simple.  This guy is so humble and peaceful.  I love the few chances I get to sit down with him between his trips to Haiti each month.

This is the guy I'm talking about with a girl he found on the road in Haiti as a newborn.  He's building her a house for her and her adopted family this year.

Tonight I put Mimi in the jog stroller and jogged a few miles in the humid Florida breeze.  I felt really clear-headed.  Yes my job frustrates me, and it's not my dream job, but It helps take care of my family.  There are some many families suffering because they can't find jobs.   Mimi is happy and loved and healthy, what more could a parent want, I mean in the big picture?

Not a very exciting post, but I just wanted to share a little bit about how I feel today.

WeightLoss Update and Mimi's Baptism

So Ladies, it has been a looooonng time since I have updated. I'm not going to lie--i've been putting it off because I have bad news to tell you and I'm ashamed and dissappointed in myself.

I have GAINED weight! I know, you're saying "but Jenney I thought you were counting your calories!?" YES I am. "But Jenney I thought you were running 2.5 miles 3 days a week?!" YES I am.

I'm as frustrated as you are with me. Believe me. There is nothing more frustrating than following your plan and giving it your all and GAINING weight. So this morning I was 196!!!!! (Still below my husband however). That's right. I've gained 3.5 lbs. I say that I'm disappointed in myself, but realistically I'm more frustrated. It's hard to say I'm disappointed because I HAVE been following my plan. When I look at my little graph, I want to cry/punch the computer screen.

So what does this mean for my weightloss goal of hitting my goal weight by Christmas?

Well....I basically have a few options.  

1.  Go on a crazy cardio filled crash diet adenture week and get back on track.

2.  Re-evaluate my goal by extending the goal date

3.  Up my weightloss goal from 1.25 to 1.4 lbs per week to reach my goal on time.  

I think I will do choice 3.  I kind of have my mind set on that Christmas date and I dont' like crash dieting because it's likely I'll just suffer the next week from exhaustion and gain back more weight.  So that's my plan.  I am going to re-adjust my "expected line" from now on.

Do you guys think I made the right choice?

So where is the mysterious weight coming from? I have a guess.  I have officially stopped breastfeeding completely and no longer produce any measurable milk.  Before this I was producing 3-5 ounces per day.  I've read that milk production equates to about 20 calories/ounce.  So let's use the hight ounce rate and assume I was burning 100 calories a day just making milk.  So, this is about 700 calories per week, or 1/2 lb per week.   No quite good enough of an excuse right?  Well In know that this change in breastfeeding status has really affected my body.  All of a sudden I have acne like a teenager again, after having a clear face for the last year or so.  So the change is definitely affecting my body.  

In other news....

Running is going great!! No asthma issues, no knee problems (knock on wood).  I highly recommend the 5K101 FREE podcast running program.  I am finishing week 3 tonight and Wed. I'll start week 4.  I had been getting HORRIBLE headaches when I ran, as I've mentioned before.  Today I saw a massage therapist for an hour (for only $16 copay!!) and tomorrow I go back to the chiropractor.  I have some muscles in my neck that were so tense the chiropractor said they were cutting off circulation to the vessels in my neck while I ran, thus the headache.  I also has a rib popped our of place today, hence the stabbing pains in my back.  The massage was nice but also a little painful.  I had so many knots in my neck, shoulders and lower back.  I'm all loosy goosy now though.  I signed up for my first 5K in Oct.

Mimi was baptized this weekend in the Catholic church.  She looked beautiful.  After trying to keep her quiet and still through the mass and the baptism, I now realize why people do this when their kids are newborns!  I'm not going to lie, she was pretty rotten throughout the entire thing. She even grabbled the flame of the baptismal candle while it was lit in front of the entire congregation--thanks Mimi for making me look like #1 horrible parent of the year!!  Here are some photos, Grace took photos during the actual baptism so I'll have to get those photos from her.  Here a few before and after mass we took with our camera.  I went out of my comfort zone and wore a dress that wasn't black or navy.  This was a new thing for me... lol.  

The coral colored dress and holy frizzy hair!

Mimi with her godparents Tricia and Martin (soon to be mr. and mrs. this dec!)

My energetic child in all white and gold :-)

Well that's about it guys.  Gained weight, love running, got child baptized.  All important topics covered?!

I wish baby dust to all my friends TTCing right now!

Good luck to my other weightloss followers, I'm not giving up!

Have a great week Ladies!

so sad

I just put Mimi to bed without nursing her or giving her a bottle for the first time. I think this is harder for me than her. I feel so sad closing this chapter in the book of mommy and Mimi.

:-(

A day in the life of Jen